thx 4 listening 2 me crap.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
My first youth inter-club game has just ended. And guess what we loss 0-5 right smacking in the face. I know there are times that somethings are can't be helped but there are also times that i felt that i can change the fate of the ending result. First time in my life when i bowl i felt so numb and senseless. First time i just want to pack and leave the place. First time i really felt like crying and blaming myself that i am the cause of the whole result. Why must this happen to me at this very time at this very spot. I had condemned myself to the very core. I know people will start thinking... why do you have to be so hard on yourself. It is just a game. There are always chances. But do you guys know that this is the only chance i had this year there will not be another. I just do not like my dad's expectations they are too high to reach. Too high to fulfill. Can i just give up?
Now i really want to go to the seaside and shout all my unhappiness. But i actually planned to jog just now but my mind stopped me cause now is very late... Who can i share those things with?
Now i seriously needs you!!!
lost myself. my soul. @
11:23 PM
