thx 4 listening 2 me crap.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
There is a phrase that goes " SCHOOL'S OUT FUN'S IN". But i don't seems to be getting any fun when my school is out. Through lots of days thinking endlessly about my goals and the direction i want to take, i came out with a perfect solution. That is to get into the national team and university of course. Although i have no confidence now about getting into the national team but i am determine to try until i get in. Even if i am damn old i also dun give a damn about it.
My holidays now are filled with lots of training and stuff. Major part of it is filled with bowling training of course. Be it personal ones, clubs or school's. I am very commited for personal and club's training is because i felt that it is essential for me and club's training is all about fun and games. I am not saying that school's training is crap or what but i am also trying my very best to dig out time for the trainings. I am not trying to be a big shot by coming to training once or twice and tell you that i am good. I want to prove to the team that i am what i am saying and i believe that i had enough training outside. I dun want to over do it.
But sometimes I just can't stop those people to think that i am just a passerby. My main and only objective to join the school team is to have an experience of playing in a school field, which i have never done that before. Maybe i am thinking too much about people feelings and thoughts. I am trying to be fair to those who comes for training every single session. I just got a point to prove to myself and someone else.
I am pushing myself real hard...till i can feel the tear that is about to be ripped.
DAMN TIRED!!! WHO CAN LEND ME A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON?IT IS NOW OR NEVER!!!
lost myself. my soul. @
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