thx 4 listening 2 me crap.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
POL-ITE games are really coming up close. I am so going to cheer for the team deep down inside. Felt so lost when being placed on court. Seriously i dun deserve the spot. It should have been given to those that are better. But there is surely a reason that i do not see or known of.
Recently i have been too tense. That really affected me alot. Stamina is also gone. The feeling has also vanished. Building all those again is going to be hard on me. However the time is not at my advantage. When the time comes i think i just have to use what i have to the maximum. I truely doubt that at times but there is no other choice.
Went bowling today again. Learned how to push my ball. It is so freaking hard to change my habit. I am so determined and not going to give up that easily. Things that my dad had said is so true ' why go to selection for nationals...if you are good they will automatic come to you'. The reason why i totally agree with this is because if your skills have been recognize, they will surely come to you. So if i have not been discovered, the only thing that i can think of is i have not done well enough and will strive on.
So with the bowling POL-ITE coming i am going to win something back that is for sure. But there will be obstacles like national bowlers and stuff like that. I will put in my best not going to give a damn to anyone. The biggest challenge is me myself.
you can do it....SHOot ( strike)!!! KILL!!!!
thx
lost myself. my soul. @
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